Stuck

For a long time I had been moving often and quickly. Shifting from one position to the next. Not looking back, and sideways only as needed. Forward, always forward, as if running from something. And don’t get me wrong, I saw lots of things, places and people. Some of which I’d like to forget and others I’d like to keep forever fresh.

Then life started slowing me down. Not because I shouldn’t move forward, but because I needed to pay attention to what I was dragging with me, what I was leaving behind. And I did. I payed attention. I observed myself and what was around me. Everything.

I came to a full stop. I let go of everything and only took back what was real, what was truly mine.

Now I don’t run, I levitate. I levitate over what i saw before. I have reached a new layer of reality, a new level of consciousness. I can see so much more now. New destiny threads have become clearly visible. I can see their origin, their destinations and the whole path it will run through.

But I can’t move. There’s no forward, no back and no sides. It’s just unrestricted space. I could do anything, go anywhere or come back. But I don’t, I can’t. I watch the world move, people go on with life, situations happen.  But I, I’m stuck.